Personal integrity..... hmmm.....
The JW way of life is all I have ever known, it speaks to me and I understand it fully.
In my complicated situation, I have grown accustomed to viewing/treating the WTBTS as a buffet, taking what I like and avoiding the rest. There is much to be liked and I choose to accentuate that, the very nice social interactions for example.
Good thing my mind is so well compartmenalized that I can find happiness this way. It works for me and so many others trapped inside.
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